Ponder this:

Thursday, June 17, 2010

-Ectomy, Conservation, Reconstruction, O My!

I truly don't want this blog to turn into a personal saga of trial and tribulation and/or a sucking up of sympathy. 
Howsomever, there is this great big thing going on in my head and about to go on in my life and I'm in need of a vent to the great cyberspace.  

The End of the Lump was not the end, it seems.
It's all about margins and, like real estate, location, location, location.
Benign is not, it turns out in the surgeon's parlance, the same as benign in my world.
There is More to Come.

I have choices. Two. In order to prevent a change of the mildly odd cells to something far more worrisome.
"A little bit more off and radiation," or "all off and no radiation."
The choice seemed very simple to me at first. And then I began to gather information. Being uninformed about this stuff is not to be desired, but ignorance surely is more blissful.

When it comes right down to it, what do I need the thing for?
I keep thinking of analogies...if I had a "questionable" fingernail with a chance of eventual invasion to my whole arm and body, I would have my finger removed without blinking an eye. And I can get along without this particular mound of flesh far more easily than I could without any of my fingers. 
D Day (the D standing for either further Discussion or Decision) is on June 24.


Anonymous said...

We're thinking about you June. Sending warm thoughts and hugs your way.

rachel said...

Phew, terrible times, June. No amount of research will make the decision for you, but if you haven't seen this latest development (info.cancerresearchuk.org/news/archive/cancernews/2010-06-08-Single-radiation-dose-during-surgery-effective-against-breast-cancer), maybe it could add to your rapidly-increasing fund of information.

Meantime, warmest and most sympathetic thoughts coming your way.

Carolynn Anctil said...

Oh boy. This is big. I don't envy you this choice.

I will pray for strength & discernment for you, and for a return to complete health.


(My word verification: refines )

#1Nana said...

Don't worry about what you're writing about in the blog. It's the personal perspective that makes the writing so readable. Isn't it a blessing to have this outlet? Send your worries into cyberspace and let them go. There, doesn't that feel better>

We're all pulling for you. I don't envy you the decision.

Wanda..... said...

Wish it were over and done with for you, June. One always thinks they will know what to do, in such a case, but when it happens, the decision is tough to make!

Thinking of you and wiahing you all the best!

Autumn Mist said...

Oh dear, this was rather unexpected out here in the blogosphere, and obviously unwelcome. It's not a decision I would like to have to make either. I will be praying for you, too. But thankyou, you have put my own problems into perspective, and that will do me good.

Betsy Banks Adams said...

Sorry June for what you are going through. I know it's hard --making big decisions. In the end though, I'm sure you'll make the right decisions --in order to get and stay healthy and be able to lead a long life ahead.

Hugs and Prayers,

Bossy Betty said...

What decisions you are faced with. Puts a lot into perspective, that's for sure. Thinking of you....

SmitoniusAndSonata said...

Damn ! That is so not what you wanted to hear .
I can only send you my sympathy and say that I'd choose the mastectomy .
But , whatever you decide , I wish you a quick recovery and a speedy all clear .

Barb said...

Very unwelcome news and a difficult decision. I'm sure you are information-gathering and having discussions with your Husband. Have you gotten a second opinion? I'll be thinking of you. Keep us posted.

Vicki Lane said...

Best of luck to you -- stay strong.